NEW POETRY: Apogee


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You have to know
it WAS you
Until the spark
of Judas
lit the night

Now
I am Afraid
Of AND For
You

Back
to reflecting
the Light
of Those Much Larger
you are
Abandoning Me
You’re at Apogee
I Once
thought You
were closer

Return, please?
Feign Home is Me
Stop this Insolence
I’ve never wanted to be
a mother to you


Worse the Truth
A Hush in Time
I fancied myself
The Dark Star
orbiting You
Held Close
by Gravity

c2017 GC Cameron

NEW POETRY: Obscurum, in Pace


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Obscurum, in Pace

 

Obscurum, in pace

Ruins holy, eternally assured

Porcelain Too Tall

You are

Bulbuous Rubenesque

My peasant pottery juxtaposed

Awkward Perfect

I strain to hear your footfalls

 

Like Delphi herself

Are our moments

Idyllic now?

As silent and solemn

As the

 Ancient Oracle, profound?

 

We demur

Yet so expect

To be

to some archeologist

Renowned

 

Flowers fade wild

But are lovely

Nonetheless

Here between us

Elysium-bound

 

c2016 GC Cameron

 

 

 

NEW POETRY: Tried and True


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TRIED and TRUE

I wanted
to be held
in the
worst of ways
I wanted
to have Someone
kiss the day away
Someone
Tried and True
Someone
I could trust
Who knew
Where I come from
Where I would fall
Where I’d run to
when life
became too much
and I felt too small

No
It’s not You
as bad as it feels
to know
I can’t touch
I can’t breathe
I can’t reach
I can’t keep
You for Me
How the Sadness
cuts so deep
Everyone must think

It isn’t You

Ring around
the forsythia bush
Spend Summer
in the cool
of the basement
Talk of everything
til the training wheels
come off
and I can
ride away
Grown and Free

No
It’s not You
as right as it feels
I know
I can’t touch
I can’t breathe
I can’t reach
I can’t keep
You for Me
How the Yearning
quickens my aching
I can’t weep
for You

It can’t be You

When was
I last loved
Legitimately?
Where is
He I didn’t see
at the time?

If I can find Him
Will He erase this
feeling that
only You are right

Toss the rule book
out the window
Love’s not
built on Yesterday
Kiss me now
by my car
In the fog
No one will say

It was You

c2016 GC Cameron

NEW POETRY: Key to Heaven


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KEY to HEAVEN

I look
in the other direction
away from where
You call home
Find a dirt road
lined with fields
Run away
fast and alone
Beg the breeze dry
the tears I’m crying
before you ever notice

Life has passed me by
Love has left me behind
Now that I finally want both

I knew
the first time
I saw your warm eyes
I couldn’t bear to stay long
Never had to even hear your voice
to know where I wanted to find shelter
A kiss would take away Sanity
A caress would be a Nightmare

Life has been denied
Love has laughed at my sighs
Despite prayers upon many an altar

You’re too Young
I’m too Old
In your gaze
with each passing day
I feel small
Pathetic and more Alone
Your smile dances with children
but tightens at the sight of a bell

(It’ll toll for me first
You might as well ring it
My Sirens’ Song
won’t unite Us)

Somehow
Twice on Afternoons
I wander ’round back
to your door
Wish the cinder block walls
weren’t so tall
and so costly for me to pay for
The carpet hides the crumbs
of Fools’ Gold I give up
Diamonds you know
but don’t touch

Life has faded to black and white
Love has become a legend
Despite pennies thrown in fountains
and wishes made on stars
You’ll always hold
the keys to Heaven

c2016 GC Cameron
(with apologies)

NEW POETRY: Smarter Above


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SMARTER ABOVE

We pray
and hide
Sigh and cry
Every time
a child dies
Yet claim
Adulthood
demands we define
doing the same
for Ourselves
a stain

Let me
Let me
be the Gentle
Unafraid as I am
that caresses your forehead
Is blessedly baptized
by your tears
Finds Intimate Privilege
in kissing your scrapes
(be they on your ego
or your knee)

We scrounge for Joy
here on this rock
Beg sunlight
not to parch
Grain as it grows up
Reach in our pleadings
for a Higher One
to save us from ourselves

This once
Let there be
Someone smarter
Above

c2016 GC Cameron
for The Terry Family

NEW POETRY: Skip Hop Puddle Ocean


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Skip Hop Puddle Ocean

I know how
this goes
(rather, Doesn’t)
Like trees on opposite shores
Smile and sway
Bow and say
nice things to each other
Across a cavernous
Skip hop puddle
You shun
the notion
of bridging

There will be
the capes sacrificed
Velvet offered up
Baffled faces
not privy
to an explanation
as to why
I’ll not traverse them

You don’t realize
(Now now,
No one does)
that I knew
This Eternity
the moment
I met your gaze

(I’ve accepted
Broken-Hearted Fate
without running
Sure the Gaul
given was deserved)

And so
I await
Your Too Bright Shining
That day
when your Happy
will blind us both
to my tears

You’ll know warmth
I’ll die drowning
in the
Skip Hop Puddle
now an ocean
of Sobbed Years

c2016 GC Cameron

NEW POETRY: A Thousand Lights


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A Thousand Lights

You have been
my bravest mistake
How mere oceans
were tiny
compared to the years
I’ve forsaken
for You
Just to look
for a whisker
Wonder
about a footfall
Thank God
Reassured
Our End
was still
a Yet

A thousand lights
have come and gone
If only
my Pride
hadn’t been so strong
Maybe I now
I could say
without regrets at all
I’ve lingered
these hours
on Not Yets

Oh but Here
it’s finally come
Things I didn’t say
have come up
Caught in my throat
Decisions and Hope
Goodbye
So long
It was what was
I’m smaller than I thought
The candles have gone out
with a breathless Aah
and a shuddered Want
You’ve decided
I’m your Expendable Mistake
You won’t realize
til I’ve gone away
I’ve been your
Not Yet

c2016 GC Cameron

NEW POETRY: Old Dogs and Love


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OLD DOGS and LOVE


Oh, the Summer's worn
I've done everything right
Still I'm barefoot and alone
Too brilliant to be brave
Headstrong too long to be sexy

Old dogs and Love
are the only things that miss me

Hungry for arms
I don't yet know
Flesh to flesh 
under a blanket of snow
Maybe washing the dishes
will offer up some peace

Old dogs and Love
do you still miss me?

Storms are coming 
from Chicago way
Evening time
the city lights
call my name
I've earned the right

to dance in the moonlight
(Won't you please)
Sail away to find Autumn
on the last September breeze

Small town livin' suits me fine
I tried to be a downtown girl
but most of them are too uptight
Give me four on the door 
air conditioning
A diet Coke
a pack of smokes
and the FM stereo blaring

Let me kiss 
your beer belly
goodnight
Under your glowing stogie
tell me it's all right
I'm not asking
for anything
too hard to find

Friday night lights
don't forsake me please
(Don't wanna be the last
to live Poetry)
Old dogs and Love
lead me to the morning light

Deliver me
from this Oppressive Need
I beg you
old dogs and Love





C2016 GC Cameron





NEW POETRY: If You Ask Me


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If You Ask Me

If you ask me

I truly know

Who

taught me how

to spell my name

How to sew

How to not be afraid

when jelly glasses

fell to the floor

When egg yolks broke

How to write

thank you notes

How memories

could be retrieved

during a nap

before

afternoon tea

Dry my tears

in this day and age

when cotillions

don’t matter anymore

Such are you

that I carry

an Invisible shield

protective of me

as I walk now

in the World

Now stripped of Care

Devoid of Respect for boundaries

that protected Intimacies

Manifested Dreams

I carry you with me, Darling

Everywhere

 

c2016 GC Cameron

NEW POETRY: Thirty-oh


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Thirty-oh

You’ve never
heard Me
This I know
I have cried
amidst
the stench-enclosing walls
that is my Home
that is my Skin
Drive me Tiny
in this way
to loathe myself
even more

Your
polished youthfulness
pushes
disrespectfully
and yet
oh so politely
Idealistically so
You have yet
to collide with
Gravel in your shoes
Intimately irrevently experience
Road Rash scraping
thighs and knees
and hopes

I have
so ached
Your Breath
would baptize
Air and Life
but
No

And yet
You still believe
(and still push)
and I’ll not
bear Your Sorrow
Your Eyes
the moment
You realize
Triumph here
comes tainted
by the
thirty pieces of silver
paid Forward

Porcelain-faced
Treasured One
You don’t hear me
Quiet now
I know

c2016 GC Cameron